To Say That I Am Fine Is Ridiculous
“To say that I am fine is ridiculous. I am not. I trigger back to my past in all sorts of ways and probably will all my life. Dark forests, fog, empty cupboards, disorganization, ugly rooms, chaos, dog kennels, ropes, even loneliness and aloneness will set me off.
I still have to control Alice, My Anxiety. I will probably always need my black charcoal pencil and my sketch pad to push the past back.
But I like me again. I like making collages and paintings. I like using whipping cream in my coffee, and I like whipping it up and using it on Kade.
I know who I am.
I’ve had tragedy in my life, and miracles. But isn’t that life for all of us?
Some darkness, some rainbows?
Some fear, some courage?
Some love, some loss?
Yes to all of it.
It is life.
I am Grenadine Scotch Wild.”
From my book, “What I Remember Most.”
